Anais Nin, 17 de Outubro de 1927

I awakened without a kiss, had breakfast without talk; I had nobody to brush, to kiss good-bye; I am having lunch with Mother, and tonight I will sleep alone again. Am I glad to be alone? Was there anything I wanted to do while Hugh (husband) is away that I cannot do when he is here? No. I miss him deeply, I have no desires, no joy at my independence; and I feel as if I were half alive. this wonderful life I praise so often seems blank and stupid today. I could do without my mirror, without lovely clothes, without sunshine - none of these things are necessary when I am alone. I did a few things to take advantage of my solitude, sleeping on the left side of the bed, which I prefer to the right,and wearing gloves with cold cream. And then of course I was glad to have the bathroom to myself. Usually I have to scratch the door and miaow desperately to be allowed in, and even then I get a shoe or a clothes brush on the head. Also, I slept fifteen minutes longer then usual.